I notice my hesitation around putting anything 'out there'- words, pictures, videos, even creating any kind of job or career that says 'Here I am, world, this is who I am and what I do.' I'm afraid it will pigeon hole me and force me to uphold that image. I lose my freedom in growth and change because now the world sees me as 'this person' and I don’t want to feel guilty or weird about changing it when/if I decide to do something else. I'd rather wait until my 'true final calling' appears and then I can present myself as being and representing 'that.'
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I LOVE saying 'Fuck it!' to my pretend other self in my head when it's telling me not to do something..and I do it anyway. Take that other voice in my head! God it feels good! It's like the teenager speeding off on a motorbike from the screaming parent telling him to get into the house. FREEEEEDOMMMM! You can't tell me what to do!...even if it is just me I'm having this debate with.
I don't believe in the word lazy. There is no lazy person, just a lack of inspiration! There is just a blockage in the line of energy flow. This happens because of a sadness that can weigh you down, a fear that immobilizes you from doing what you want, or just a lack of inspiration. Emotional traumas, or just any avoidance of our emotions, create blocks in your energy flow and when undealt with, eventually lead to a heaviness that turns into depression and/or disease in the body. Poor diet and general negligence of our body's wellbeing will create this heaviness and fatigue as well.
When you wake up in the morning, what exactly is waking up? The mind was highly awake during the dream cycles, but now the body is waking up from its state of paralysis. So the body is waking and the mind is waking up to the body experience, welcoming the body back into its awareness. All night the body is laying down and the mind takes over, creating a new reality that is entirely functioning from pure imagination. This is why the dream world is so fascinating, magical and wacky. It's a free-for-all imagination playground that does not have to adhere to the logic and rules that exist in the material realm with the body, time and space.
With the TV all the programs have been chosen for me, I have no participation in this process at all, only to choose a program from the limited options in the beginning, and then lay back and submit to mindless entertainment. It's a completely passive activity that allows you to numb out of life. The program options are usually of that nature, a lower vibration numbing entertainment that leaves me feeling out of my mind and out of my power. It's a great distraction for a once in a while thing, but it can quickly turn into an addictive pattern because it feels good to numb out your mind, feelings and emotions, which at times can be quite exhausting and painful. And giving up your power means giving up your responsibility which can feel freeing to remove the weight of the mind that contemplates what you need to do in your life, and then judges whether or not you're doing it right or good enough. It kills your creativity, inspiration and passion though as your sense of self and active participation in life are taken away.
Your vocal range is a reflection of your range of emotional expression, it is a direct representation of your range of life experience. The higher you can go, the more access you’ve given yourself to the higher, lighter, more divine spiritual qualities, the lower is the denser, earthier, animalistic, base human deeper emotions of pain, anger and sorrow, the middle range being the balance, and the weaving in and out of all is the flexibility with which you can flow through life through your highs and lows, ups and downs, from the human-like aspects to godlike qualities, in and out, through and between.
Unless you're really learning something technical, some specific skillset, getting a degree is just a piece of paper that validates your natural intuition. It is just something that confirms to the world, and yourself, that you are 'good enough' to share your gifts with the world. You don’t learn anything you didn’t already know, if anything it can clog your mind with extraneous information that takes away from your own intuitive knowing.
So, in the U.S., you're paying around $40K/year for 4 years to get some confidence to just be you. And something that justifies to the rest of the world that you can be trusted to do what you were good at anyway. I really love sinking into the unknown and allowing the mystery of this life to reveal itself without any projection of my mind onto the future. It feels so good to give my mind and body a break from always trying to 'figure something out'. Whether it's planning for a longterm future, or knowing where I'll be or what I'll do tomorrow..or even the next hour, or minute. Truly allowing life to show me what would be the best next move, and trusting in its wisdom to be more powerful and more inventive, fun and interesting than my mind could have ever pre-planned for. The regular thinking mind can only work from past experiences, and usually it will only include the directly recent ones to draw from this memory for producing new thoughts.
We're always just saying yes or no to each other in our communication (or to ourselves in our heads). The no is resistance, the yes is acceptance and allows the flow to continue. The yes allows for more creativity, as it builds on the previous energy and adds more possibility to it. This is why improvisation works with saying yes continuously. It's a beautiful synergy that happens, all improvised from the divine flow being allowed to just move without obstruction. What if we improvised our whole life this way? Saying yes to people, circumstances, energies, feelings, emotions, no matter how unpleasant. Sometimes its even okay to say no when the energy behind it is actually a yes. You can say yes to the flow by saying no. The yes comes first, and the no is just a different perspective without a resisting energy. It is still just part of the creative flow even if it's an opposing idea on the surface. It's adding to the conversation and energy exchange, rather than stopping it abruptly by shutting it down in resistance and rejection.
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MICHAELA CLARA I'm here to share what I've learned through my journey of self exploration-traveling around the outer world and within the inner world-learning about how to live a healthy, fulfilling life from Truth, in alignment with the body, heart and soul. Every day I'm discovering how to live more in health, connection and Truth. Through joy, passion & self love, and sharing this love with others. Join me for the ride! Read More |